Finally heard the call

I sit, alone, in a hotel pondering how best to lay out these words to say what I've kept inside.

I have felt Him speaking to me for a long time, I feel His presence often. Until recently, I've not been able to understand what He wants me to do.

Was I not listening? Was I not ready?
Perhaps a little of both.

I can't begin to understand why I feel this calling so late in my life, but it is here, and I can't ignore it now that I understand what He is telling me to do.

I have long held talent in leading others, I know I'm not the best of leaders, I have a lot to learn, but He did grant me natural skill.
The other piece, interestingly seemed to be have been completely absent from my life before the call.

I have never fully appreciated music. I joke that I am tone deaf, though I don't think I really am, I just let all that I learned in elementary school fade away.
I had tried to play a Bass before, about 5ish years ago. Lack of focus and frustration led to me giving it up.
I bought a guitar and amp and am self learning what I can.

It's an odd feeling, I'm in no hurry, I know that when the time comes, He will provide what is needed. Until then, I am to learn, for the others that will hear it when I am ready.